Hello stranger… It’s hard to believe that it’s been nearly 4 months since I’ve posted around here! It’s a sad reality, really. I think about blogging all the time. My current mindset just has a hard time sitting down, editing and writing. However, today I had the urge, so I went with it… and I’m glad I did!
I want to fill you in on what’s been going on in our household the last few months. After my breakup in January, I really began to reevaluate my life and my purpose in this thing we call life. I have really been doing some soul searching for the majority of 2019. Praying God leads me in the direction I was destined for.
The kids and I have had the amazing opportunity to take a few getaways, and these trips have grounded me in many different ways! First, being that my immense purpose at this very moment, is to be the best Mama I can be for my babies! We get so wrapped up in relationships, work, blogging, social media, etc. that we tend to forget what’s really important.
Spending one-on-one time with them was, by far, the most amazing and humbling experiences I have had in awhile. I must say, I am beyond proud of those two humans I am raising! They keep me grounded and focused on providing a better future for us all.
Second, friendships are so important! We had the pleasure of driving down to a little town in Pennsylvania to visit my best friend of 17 years and her two boys. It was honestly a breath of fresh air seeing her familiar face! It’s amazing, although it had been months that we’d seen each other, that we picked up right where we left off. We laughed, cried, made new memories and reminisced on the old ones. Friendship is nectar for our souls!
Third, family is forever. Prior to going to Pennsylvania, we made our first stop in Maryland to visit family. I’m embarrassed to say, it had been 15 years since I made it there to visit. We typically see that side of the family once a year, but they travel to Ohio. It was a sobering realization that I had missed so much in 15 years. My cousin is headed to her freshman year of college this year, and I couldn’t help but feel sheer guilt for not being closer with them.
Despite the guilt weighing on my shoulders, it was an amazing trip! The moment we walked into their home we felt the love. The kids played and laughed and we felt so welcomed there. I had some heart-to-heart conversations with my Aunt and Uncle, and walked away with an accomplished feeling from our quick stay.
I guess the reason I’m telling you these things is because sometimes we go out to search for ourselves and don’t know what to do or where to look. My advice is remove yourself from whatever toxic environment is dragging you down at that moment, and get a change of scenery. Whether it be for a day or a week. Connect with people who truly love you and whose words and reasoning you respect.
I’m telling you this will give you a fresh look on the outlook you hope to accomplish and move towards. Sometimes we tend to get stuck in negative mindsets or the same routines that just drag us down. Set goals and work towards them every single day!